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Fishing for Support Chat -- DECEMBER, 2000
[SFishy] as with all our chats, all the same rules apply -- no numbers (weights, sizes, calories), and now answers to questions that would help you sink further into your ED
[SFishy] these chats are about working towards recovery...
[SFishy] even though not all of you may be IN "recovery" -- we can all take steps to taking better care of US
[SFishy] and that's the goal ;)
[SFishy] SO... we're going to get started
[MrFishy] Welcome all!
[SFishy] Last month we talked about coping with the holidays using your senses...
[SFishy] site, smell, touch and hearing...
[SFishy] this month we're going to talk about coping with the holidays in very concrete ways...
[SFishy] abstract is good, but sometimes we also need REAL answers to REAL problems
[MrFishy] when we were kids...
[MrFishy] the holidays were about fun...
[MrFishy] off from school...
[MrFishy] that kinda stuff...
[MrFishy] as we got older...
[MrFishy] something else creeped in to our lifes...
[MrFishy] (boo hiss)
[MrFishy] that EVIL word that makes us all do things we dont want to sometimes...
[MrFishy] or feel things we dont want to sometimes...
[MrFishy] first question...
[MrFishy] and remeber the guidlines to answering them please...
[MrFishy] Name some stressful stuff at holiday time!
[Jack] gift buying
[honey_bear] family gatherings
[eeyore_tc] no family
[honey_bear] 6 of them
[Millificent] money, definitely
[mary] family, social obligations
[eeyore_tc] being alone
[honey_bear] finding presents for others
[Jack] my brother-in-law
[honey_bear] being away from loved ones
[rubydreamer] trying to make everyone happy
[varmaflower] being around too many people in a house
[honey_bear] my irritable brother with whom I stayed the whole month
[ballerinagirl] turning the pages for the stressed out music director at midnight mass when he looks like he's about to have a heart attack..lol
[Keenie] shopping, work, family
[ballerinagirl] missing my sisters :(
[honey_bear] TOOO many people and TOOO many gatherings
[varmaflower] having to eat to plase the whole family
[Jack] thinking you have the perfect gift and finding out it's not so perfect
[Anonymous_Member005] missing my friends
[ballerinagirl] the mall
[HopeMadison] no family
[honey_bear] snow and I don't know how to drive in it
[mootopia] varmaflower: ditto
[honey_bear] being away from friends
[ballerinagirl] too much snow
[Beit] less company
[aly_cat] too many places to go
[tazbugsmom] children in the house for hours on end
[honey_bear] too much to do
[Jack] running around like crazy trying to get to everyone
[SFishy] thanks for sharing everyone!
[MrFishy] wow.....lots of stressors there huh?
[SFishy] lets talk about one of them... one of the biggest ones for many...
[SFishy] dealing with FAMILY or lots of PEOPLE at the holiday gathering
[SFishy] this is something that can feel like torture
[SFishy] so we have to find ways to better deal with the stress...
[MrFishy] healthier ways
[SFishy] that may mean, for some of us, to limit the gatherings we commit ourselves to...
[SFishy] or limiting the time we stay at these parties...
[MrFishy] time for oneself
[SFishy] or setting boudaries with the people around us that we will be communicating with...
[MrFishy] protecting ourselves
[SFishy] asking them politely to please not put pressure on us, or argue with us during what is supposed to be a festive time
[MrFishy] taking care of ourselves
[SFishy] of course, we can't keep ALL stressors out... or all conflicts at bay...
[MrFishy] too hard to do...
[SFishy] so we also have to figure out ways to cope with the anxiety of going to these gatherings, and the aftermath of being there
[SFishy] can I hear some suggestions from all of you...
[MrFishy] healthy strategies
[SFishy] ways that you have coped this year with stressors...
[SFishy] or ways that you think you could better cope with them?
[Charr] taking a bath
[courage] take a short walk
[Keenie] stay home
[Charr] call a friend
[honey_bear] leisure walk
[courage] go for a drive
[honey_bear] play the piano
[HopeMadison] listening to music
[catchow] this year i cancelled all of these stressor get together
[mootopia] walking my dog
[Millificent] read a good book
[khrys] being honest
[honey_bear] take a long nap
[ruach] I started shortening length of visits to one nite instead of 2
[Keenie] squirt squirrels
[honey_bear] talk to a friend
[Charr] write on boards
[Jack] enjoying the car rides with my husband
[ballerinagirl] chasing the cat
[Charr] take deep breathes
[honey_bear] TAKE MEDS.... instead of avoiding them
[Anonymous_Member005] call a friend
[mootopia] drawing moustaches on photos
[mary] playing with my dog
[varmaflower] watch tv?
[La] cuddle with my cat :)
[HopeMadison] talf to a friend
[Charr] goto a movie
[ballerinagirl] talk to my sisters
[Jack] take a bath
[Charr] dance in my room
[HopeMadison] come to SF
[Keenie] nap with my dog
[varmaflower] sleep overmy friend's house
[honey_bear] dance around the den
[Pink_Princess] b board/diary
[DysphoriaStabs] wrote songs
[honey_bear] sing into a hairbrush
[rubydreamer] worked on a scrapbook ;)
[Charr] listen to nice music
[Millificent] being honest about what i need
[ballerinagirl] hugged my stuffed animals
[honey_bear] talk to mom
[varmaflower] playing sega with my sister
[MrFishy] good answers!!!!!!!!!!!!
[SFishy] GREAT ANSWERS everyone
[MrFishy] what i saw....
[MrFishy] some people used some sort of distraction...
[MrFishy] good deal...
[MrFishy] others got there emotions out in a healthy way...
[MrFishy] others found a way to find time just to enjoy themsleves...
[MrFishy] good for you!
[MrFishy] drive ya mad...
[MrFishy] there ARE ways to deal with them.....
[MrFishy] not all...
[MrFishy] and not a hundred percent of the time...
[MrFishy] but sometimes...
[MrFishy] all ya need is SOMETHING...
[MrFishy] to get ya thru...
[SFishy] It's important to remember that working to take care of you
[SFishy] and working at recovery
[SFishy] doesn't mean you won't FEEL things
[SFishy] it doesn't mean you will feel happy-go-lucky all the time
[SFishy] it's important to know that recovery is as much about FEELING even the emotions that hurt
[SFishy] and that make us angry
[SFishy] but we learn better ways to express ourselves
[SFishy] to deal with these emotions
[SFishy] to get them out
[SFishy] what are some of the emotions everyone is feeling this time of year with all the holiday stress?
[ballerinagirl] sad :(
[Keenie] anxiety and depression
[lisas] sad and depressed
[sanzo] dont get me started
[eight] anxiety--that's a good one
[mary] bipolar, illness, panic
[sanzo] sore from shoveling
[Beit] not cared about
[eight] panic--that too
[honey_bear] sore from exercise
[eight] hard to cope with everything with the ed and with the family knowing about it too
[sanzo] good one queen
[sarah_jane] depressed, inadequate
[Pink_Princess] isolated from reality
[sanzo] and unsure
[ballerinagirl] veryveryveryvery scared
[tazbugsmom] definitely inferior
[ballerinagirl] out of place
[doctor_amino] disgust at self for coming from such a family.
[tazbugsmom] outside looking in
[sarah_jane] a failure
[mary] mixed up
[MrFishy] good share...
[SFishy] thank you all for sharing your emotions
[SFishy] I know it can be hard to do
[MrFishy] i always find something ironic....
[MrFishy] while in the midst of an ed...
[MrFishy] you tend to feel diffrent from everyone else...
[MrFishy] like its only YOU who feels this way....
[MrFishy] i hope that everyone saw wat i saw....
[MrFishy] that everyone here is in essence the same....
[MrFishy] everyone FEELS things ....
[MrFishy] just wanted to point that out
[SFishy] I want to share with all of you a little story about this holiday season...
[SFishy] because I am recovered...
[SFishy] and it's important to know that just because I'm recovered, that doesn't mean I don't have to deal with all the same stress
[SFishy] I had a hard time with my family this year and certain comments they made about spending time with them...
[SFishy] and through my process of recovery I realized something very important...
[SFishy] I HAVE THE POWER to change me... and to change how I choose to react to this stressful situations...
[SFishy] but I do not have the power to change THEM
[SFishy] even though I may want to
[SFishy] can you call share with me something you would like to have the power to change...
[SFishy] but something you realize you CAN'T change...
[SFishy] even though you may want to?
[doctor_amino] there are times you just want to create peace, but that can rarely happen.
[Charr] my looks
[ballerinagirl] being so far away from my sisters :'(
[sanzo] my soon to be ex hubby
[tazbugsmom] my father's reaction to me and to my children
[Anonymous_Member005] my mom
[ballerinagirl] my MOTHER
[tazbugsmom] my sister
[Charr] my family
[sanzo] there is no changing him
[HopeMadison] what people think about me
[Millificent] my friends' negativity and EDs
[Jack] my aunt and uncle and their feelings about my husband
[honey_bear] the way my parents perceive me
[Anonymous_Member006] mya ngel
[sarah_jane] my ex-husbands attitude to the kids
[mootopia] self restraint
[JMSBISMARCK] my mom
[honey_bear] my boyfriend
[ALWAYSHOPE] The fact that my mom refuses to learn about eds.
[sanzo] dont even have the desire to try
[ballerinagirl] the fact that the dance studio is closed during the holidays
[Charr] how the world sees me
[Jack] my in-laws
[Pink_Princess] The way my family think I can pull my socks up even after so long :(
[Anonymous_Member006] the past
[Mallie] hi mommy
[courage] that I'll never have " mother"
[doctor_amino] brother's autism!! good one, huh?
[Charr] other peoples negativity
[DysphoriaStabs] my father's perspective on life
[HopeMadison] my family
[tazbugsmom] make my dad see that I have value as a person and that my weight is incidental
[ballerinagirl] everyone else
[mary] my chronic illness, my family
[caragh2] +hi darling
[courage] my past
[Charr] being DID
[Anonymous_Member005] my past
[Jack] my ed
[honey_bear] that some people just don't care
[Charr] my abuse
[tazbugsmom] my health ... being disabled sucks
[HopeMadison] same as courage
[sanzo] me past as well
[momtofour] others approval
[mootopia] my cabbage patch nose and cheeks
[madge] that im bi polar
[doctor_amino] courage, i understand that.
[mary] my past
[rubydreamer] My parents
[honey_bear] when I choose my ED over recovery
[Jack] the fact that I have had it
[Charr] the weather!
[Daily] What id DID?
[La] oother people being diet obsessed
[Anonymous_Member006] second charr
[madge] my head
[Anonymous_Member005] my ed over recovery as well
[lisas] the last 13 years
[mootopia] the image others have that i'm antisocial
[Millificent] ditto La
[ALWAYSHOPE] How my mom is obessed with perfection and tries to get it through me.
[Charr] Dissociative Identity disorder
[Jack] manic depression
[sanzo] the ppl in show biz
[Mallie] i tried to whisper that
[tazbugsmom] my dad's not accepting me
[mary] my mental health stuff
[queen_tanya] all of me
[Anonymous_Member005] the world
[SFishy] again, thank you all for sharing... I know it can be painful...
[MrFishy] good share...lots of honesty...thank you
[SFishy] now along the same lines...
[SFishy] what is something you can change about YOU and how you react to these stressors in your life...
[SFishy] something positive...
[SFishy] and non-food/wieght/ED related
[tazbugsmom] write it in a journal
[honey_bear] choose not to engage in ED
[rubydreamer] My schedule...
[courage] the way I feel about ME
[Charr] eat healthy
[Jack] not taking things so personally
[staradh] my jpb
[Charr] taking care of me
[courage] my life now
[Mallie] i dont know
[Daily] I swirtch ddictions.
[HopeMadison] how I react
[lisas] self esteem
[honey_bear] reach out and ask for help
[mootopia] what i buy at the supermarket
[doctor_amino] take 10.
[Jack] my need for approval
[Charr] feeling good about myself
[Anonymous_Member005] write in a journal
[sanzo] talk to ppl...and be open with the ones who love me
[tazbugsmom] talk to those who do care for me as me when my dad judges me unfairly
[ballerinagirl] what i say back to people
[Alexandra] I can be not afraid to speak up more often.
[honey_bear] avoid triggers
[varmaflower] my low-self esteem
[Millificent] telling people when i need space
[Anonymous_Member005] keep all of my appointments
[honey_bear] talk it out
[honey_bear] take time for me
[DysphoriaStabs] stopping exaggerating events and being irrational
[Charr] my depression
[mary] my triggers
[Jack] taking time out for me
[honey_bear] call my T
[Pink_Princess] Not reading fashion magazines
[momtofour] focus on self care
[Anonymous_Member006] my attitaude
[Anonymous_Member005] take time for me
[courage] i can be open and honest
[madge] be brave and honest
[HopeMadison] share what i am feeling instead of keeping it bottled up
[sanzo] thats right Honey......triggers are bad
[Charr] taking care of all my parts
[JMSBISMARCK] let myself eat
[courage] ask for help
[Charr] getting them help
[mary] my view of the world....well that's debatable
[ballerinagirl] choosing to avoid people who make me feel bad
[sanzo] thats a good one Hope
[Charr] eek...gotta go!!
[Jack] sitting on the bench on my front porch and thinking of the good things in my life
[honey_bear] good idea sarah
[courage] my surroundings
[tazbugsmom] tell my Dad that he's judging me and how it's effected me and now is effecting my children
[SFishy] take care of YOU Charr!
[DysphoriaStabs] voicing my needs
[Mallie] trying again
[Anonymous_Member006] watching sunstes and stars
[doctor_amino] realizing there are limitations and allowing that to just be.
[mary] bye charr
[mootopia] ciao a tutti i gotta go salut a tous
[sanzo] dont be quiet
[Mallie] I did
[madge] not reacting immediatly (without thinking)
[sanzo] good one madge
[mary] my overreactions
[honey_bear] take care of ourse4lves
[ballerinagirl] not pick arguments like i sometimes fo :-/
[ALWAYSHOPE] Learn a new copingskill.
[Anonymous_Member005] tell people they have hurt me
[SFishy] great answers everyone
[MrFishy] awesome share
[MrFishy] how we feel...
[MrFishy] wat we are thinking....
[MrFishy] those are some very good points there...
[MrFishy] like amy said...
[MrFishy] she herself went thru a ruff time this hjoliday...
[MrFishy] and i think the thing that helped her the most...
[MrFishy] was to be able to say...
[MrFishy] THIS hurt me...
[MrFishy] i was HURT by this...
[MrFishy] get it out...
[MrFishy] and by getting it out...
[MrFishy] she was slowly letting it go...
[SFishy] it can be very difficult to share...
[SFishy] it can be hard to share with others (trust issues)
[SFishy] it can be hard to admit to ourselves that we hurt
[SFishy] and hard to let ourselves feel it
[SFishy] but it IS such an important part of coping with whatever it is that we are going through
[SFishy] can you all tell me a positive way you have shared how you are feeling this holiday seasons...
[SFishy] either with yourself, with someone else... or both?
[ALWAYSHOPE] Good one mar
[courage] asked the bowl for help
[Anonymous_Member006] posted, wrote email, worte poems and drew
[Daily] I am feeling sorry for myself.
[DysphoriaStabs] Told my boyfriend that the holidays make me miss childhood
[varmaflower] for the first time today, I had the guess to tell mycoach something and he didn't even answer me back
[honey_bear] I talked to my mom about how I felt when she treated me like a child
[courage] talked to my mom
[Millificent] telilng my parents that I miss our old Christmas traditions
[sanzo] ive been happier than i have every been this holiday season
[Keenie] talked to friends
[Pink_Princess] Writing on the boards how my brother made me feel where as I would have bottled it up in the past
[Anonymous_Member005] asking the bowl for help
[varmaflower] gut not gess
[mary] talked to friends
[sanzo] ive got Andy here with me
[mary] e-mailed friended
[HopeMadison] talk and shared with a friend
[Jack] i gave my sister a very special gift and I told her that I was afraid it would not be as important to her as it was to me after she opened it and I saw that it was just as important
[ballerinagirl] called friends
[mary] called my therapist
[doctor_amino] I guess you have to be prepared because I have been told "you have the NICE LIFE", you don't know what suffering is. All you do is tell us how you feel, we don't care. To this I retorted, "I will continue because I never bothered you before with all this!"
[chicodiva] I talk with my friends
[honey_bear] telling my parents that I did not want to attend 7 family meals for christmas in a week
[tazbugsmom] wrote my feelings in a journal when I got mad at my dad over his christmas gift
[ballerinagirl] even if my parents hate the long distance bill..i called anyway
[Jack] talked with my family
[courage] made extra appointments
[Anonymous_Member005] e-mailed my nutrionist
[honey_bear] shared poetry
[mary] Ran up my LONG distance bill, (international calls)
[La] made plans (gasp)
[KShine] asked for a hug
[varmaflower] complain to my friends on the phone
[doctor_amino] asked about family secrets, a big no-no.
[lisas] told myself next year will be better
[honey_bear] sang :-)
[madge] was with siblings frst time since really young,,shared
[staradh] played with my puppy
[Daily] I am in really bad shapel
[varmaflower] talk to my sister about mom..
[honey_bear] listened to Ottmar Liebbert Christmas music with familuy
[Anonymous_Member006] daily u ok
[Anonymous_Member005] wished on a star
[Jack] told my husband that he no longer had to try with my aunt and uncle because he couldn't change them
[Anonymous_Member006] star neat
[chicodiva] I snuggled with my dog
[ballerinagirl] made my cat look festive..hehe
[KShine] cuddled with my kids
[MrFishy] awesome voices all!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[SFishy] thanks so much for sharing that everyone!
[SFishy] awesome answers
[SFishy] having a voice can be so difficult...
[SFishy] but making the effort to communicate our needs is something to be really proud of
[SFishy] what needs do you have during the holiday seasons from your friends and family???
[ALWAYSHOPE] I always hope im getting better. and I am.
[varmaflower] a voice
[momtofour] to be appreciated
[KShine] unconditional acceptance
[ballerinagirl] leave me alone
[honey_bear] time and understanding
[sanzo] thats right Kshine
[KShine] i can make my own decisions
[Millificent] just being with them
[honey_bear] ti be treated like an adult
[varmaflower] to hear me out..a nd appreciate my decision
[KShine] i will do what is best for me and my kids
[chicodiva] i need them to not force me to eat!!!!!!!!
[KShine] ughhh blank
[Jack] don't watch every bite I put in my mouth
[lisas] not be stared at while trying to eat!
[sanzo] hi kamie
[Anonymous_Member005] not to make comments about appearence
[kamie] hi there!
[HopeMadison] hearing what I have to say
[honey_bear] I need not to be pressured
[sanzo] thats right Jack
[sanzo] back off a little
[mary] love, support, friendship, understanding, acceptance
[doctor_amino] listening instead of ignoring and small talk.
[KShine] just a darn ear!!!
[ballerinagirl] UN-support as strange as it sounds...don't need it the way they think they are giving it
[momtofour] unconditional love
[chicodiva] I need my dad to realize that i'm not perfect and that I can have 'issues' too.
[sanzo] understanding that it isnt easy
[varmaflower] more independence
[DysphoriaStabs] Just to feel LOVED
[ALWAYSHOPE] Please learn about eds and don't assume you know all mom.
[KShine] a sober phone call from my dad lol
[Daily] i amj trying to love myself.
[Anonymous_Member005] unconditonal love
[honey_bear] a chance to strike out on my own
[doctor_amino] that I am a special to them, not just this family member
[varmaflower] to give me a break
[sanzo] patience is good star
[Anonymous_Member005] for them to tell me they support me
[chicodiva] I need my stepmom to drop dead :')
[KShine] just letting me be me
[MrFishy] good answers
[SFishy] sometimes is can be scary to say EXACTLY what it is we need...
[SFishy] it's hard to come out and say "I need to feel loved by you"
[SFishy] or "I need to feel accepted by my ______ (insert relative here)"
[MrFishy] id like to try something....
[MrFishy] id like veryone to look at the last answer they posted....
[MrFishy] and imagine for a second.....
[MrFishy] you JUST said that to the person you want to say that to ......
[MrFishy] you KNOW deep inside you may not get the answer you want....
[MrFishy] or expect....
[MrFishy] but tellme....
[MrFishy] wat would they say? or....how would they react?
[MrFishy] HIT ME!
[ballerinagirl] don't be ridicuolous
[ballerinagirl] what are you talking about
[Anonymous_Member005] don't be stupid
[Jack] they didn't realize they did that
[tazbugsmom] I've never done that to you
[lisas] make a joke
[honey_bear] you know I love you
[ballerinagirl] i don't do that
[ballerinagirl] what do you mean
[courage] You always blame me
[rubydreamer] they would say...."i already accept you"
[KShine] change of subject
[HopeMadison] they would say "well thats what Im here for"
[tazbugsmom] I don't treat you that way
[Anonymous_Member005] What do you mean
[KShine] drop the issue
[ballerinagirl] for goodness sakes sarah
[ALWAYSHOPE] I think my mom wouldn't here me cuz she tunes me out.
[chicodiva] why do try to make something out of nothing. you have nothing to complain about.
[sanzo] dont know how to answer this one
[honey_bear] Artgrrl (Ally) sends her love, acks, and smooches
[varmaflower] i don't wan to disscuss it anyfarther.. (try my mom)
[La] would laugh
[Pink_Princess] what was that you said :(
[madge] why do you have to be like that?
[KShine] oh kristi you are exaggerating lol
[honey_bear] My mom said, "I treat you like an adult."
[Jack] what do you expect me to do, I don't know any other way to handle this?
[sanzo] dont think they would know what to say back
[ballerinagirl] stop being whiny/grumpy/antisocial/mean/...
[honey_bear] You're hurting me
[Anonymous_Member005] would tell me to leave
[ALWAYSHOPE] give it up theresa
[Jack] head down
[varmaflower] my mom would tellme I am not an adult so she make the decision for me.
[Anonymous_Member005] why do you say things like that to me
[ballerinagirl] WELL! and tehn walk away
[honey_bear] I can't believe you are saying this
[courage] nothing is ever right enough for you
[chicodiva] here...eat some pie kiddo, your paranoid
[HopeMadison] that they loved me
[honey_bear] Ally says hi to all
[KShine] i had it worse growing up kristi
[Millificent] we're too busy
[ALWAYSHOPE] Like I said, probably would not here me.
[Anonymous_Member005] i have given u every thign
[SFishy] thank you for sharing!!
[SFishy] I know that was hard!
[MrFishy] i heard all of you....
[MrFishy] and i understand all of you....
[MrFishy] you all have a voice....
[MrFishy] and you (atleast in this excersize)
[MrFishy] used that voice to express a need....
[MrFishy] and from wat i see....most people on the other side wouldnt give you the answer you REALLY want to hear....
[SFishy] we want our familiy/friends to validate us
[SFishy] to validate what we are feeling
[SFishy] and it is truly painful when they do not
[SFishy] ultimately though...
[SFishy] we need to learn to validate ourselves...
[SFishy] to realize that what we are feeling IS valid... and that...
[SFishy] while we can't change THEM... we can change how we let these things effect us... and how we cope with the emotions
[SFishy] I am 30 years old...
[SFishy] I have been recovered for about two years...
[SFishy] and I will NOT get the acceptance I need from my father... I can only get it from within
[SFishy] what can you all tell yourself...
[SFishy] to reaffirm that you DO deserve whatever it is you need???
[SFishy] What thing can you say to yourself to validate YOU?
[courage] the bowl loves me!
[ballerinagirl] i have my sisters and they will always be here for me :)
[KShine] i am a good mommy
[honey_bear] It's their issue for not accpting me... not me
[HopeMadison] I am worth it
[Anonymous_Member005] Your special
[ALWAYSHOPE] Im good enough for me. Without Dad and mom.
[ballerinagirl] i'm alright after all
[Jack] I have a beautiful family
[sanzo] I am a good person
[Anonymous_Member005] I deserve to live w/out the ed
[chicodiva] My dog loves me unconditionaly and thats all that really matters!!!
[Jack] I have wonderful kids
[honey_bear] I AM WORTH IT!
[honey_bear] O dpm
[ALWAYSHOPE] I am special.
[sanzo] and i am a beautiful lady
[momtofour] it's ok
[tazbugsmom] I need to go ... kids need put to bed
[ALWAYSHOPE] I love life.
[ewlialovesme] i'm not crazy, it's my family
[ballerinagirl] i don't need to be whatever my parents think i am or should be
[Pink_Princess] You are good enough for today
[Jack] I am a good person
[HopeMadison] i deserve it
[Alexandra] If I am doing something acceptable, then I love myself no matter how anyone else reacts.
[honey_bear] I don't need their approval to be successful
[madge] i am a good person (noy enough)
[ALWAYSHOPE] I try. but imnot perfect\
[Millificent] i'm unique
[Anonymous_Member005] I'm intelligent
[HopeMadison] i deserve to be happy
[tazbugsmom] and if I stay in here much longer I'm gonna be in tears and I don't need my sons to see that
[KShine] if i feel something it is valid whether anyone else thinks so or not
[varmaflower] everyone need me because I make a different and help other
[rubydreamer] i am ME
[KShine] darn it blank again
[tazbugsmom] good night everyone
[Jack] I'm a good mother
[ALWAYSHOPE] bye taz
[Anonymous_Member005] I deserve a good live
[sanzo] i am a strong person
[tazbugsmom] bye always
[ballerinagirl] someone thinks i'm ok :)
[Jack] night taz
[honey_bear] As long as I give my best effort that's all that counts
[ewlialovesme] my friends are good people and they think i'm fine
[ballerinagirl] bye peggi
[Jack] take care
[tazbugsmom] bye ballerina
[Millificent] night PK
[honey_bear] bye PK
[tazbugsmom] night millificent
[HopeMadison] that it is okay to feel what I feel
[ALWAYSHOPE] I can do it without their support.
[ballerinagirl] i'm allowed to have feelings too
[madge] its never too late to have a happy childhood
[momtofour] I matter
[chicodiva] I don't need to do what others want so they're ; I need to do what I want to be happy.
[Anonymous_Member005] I'm strong
[varmaflower] I am special to other.
[Anonymous_Member005] I deserve to be happy
[ALWAYSHOPE] im smart.
[KiKBoxer] i am allowed to be me
[Jack] I am allowed to feel what I feel dammit!!!!!!!
[courage] I have the COURAGE to be ME!
[madge] im allowed to........
[ALWAYSHOPE] take caretaz. of you
[sanzo] does that feel good to say that Star???
[ewlialovesme] you can't please everybody
[honey_bear] Progress not perfection
[chicodiva] cuz I said so!
[madge] blank screeen
[honey_bear] this is my life
[ALWAYSHOPE] I am beautiful.
[sanzo] its my life
[ballerinagirl] i'll be ok
[sanzo] and i want to live it
[Anonymous_Member005] I dont have to perfect
[honey_bear] others can't live through me
[varmaflower] i have a talent..
[chicodiva] Jack handy can do it
[chicodiva] why cant I
[SFishy] great answers everyone!
[MrFishy] you can put yourself ina situation....
[MrFishy] where everyone around you validates you....
[MrFishy] each and every second of the day....
[MrFishy] but if you really break it down to its sum....
[MrFishy] its up to the validation that you give yourself that truly validates you....
[MrFishy] and i heard ALOT of self validation tonight....
[MrFishy] and i belive EACH and every one of them in you!
[SFishy] the holidays season, no matter what you believe...
[SFishy] seems to revolve around gifts...
[SFishy] and being with people we love...
[SFishy] and as hard as it may seem, we can be with OURSELVES... because that is the person we should truly love the most...
[SFishy] with that in mind...
[SFishy] what special little gift will you give to yourself this holiday season?
[SFishy] It can be something you will buy or something you will do that is special...
[SFishy] from the smallest to the biggest...
[SFishy] what gift will you give yourself????
[chicodiva] New underwear from victorias secret
[Anonymous_Member005] a hot bath
[Jack] long, hot baths
[Pink_Princess] sleep more
[Jack] taking time to read
[momtofour] quiet focused time
[honey_bear] time with friends
[ALWAYSHOPE] My own acceptance
[varmaflower] I would give my self a gift to learn to communitate with other people
[KiKBoxer] time to relax
[La] yummy chapstick
[ballerinagirl] time to do nothing if i can stand it
[chicodiva] a massage
[doctor_amino] bookstore day--- just waste a complete day.
[honey_bear] crochet time
[courage] permission to seek more help
[momtofour] meditative breathing
[Jack] more time in the fishbowl
[varmaflower] a singing voice..
[honey_bear] a pedicure
[ALWAYSHOPE] read, relax, recoop!
[KiKBoxer] time to not think about anything!!
[Alexandra] An effortful attempt to eradicate self-doubt.
[ballerinagirl] time to practice singing
[Pink_Princess] play my violin
[honey_bear] learning to play my new Tori music
[Anonymous_Member005] call my therapist
[momtofour] gentleness and patience with self
[madge] start group
[ettatude] try to accept help
[Pink_Princess] hot bath instaed of cold
[honey_bear] begin interpersonal group
[ballerinagirl] meet a new old friend :)
[KiKBoxer] to be nice to myself
[Jack] go to therapy more regularly
[DysphoriaStabs] ADMIT TO MYSELF THAT IKNOW HOW TO PLAY PIANO ;)
[Anonymous_Member005] to believe in myself
[courage] meet more fishies
[ALWAYSHOPE] Starting aed support group in my area.
[momtofour] listen to myself
[chicodiva] find a therapist and actually go
[courage] try to love me
[varmaflower] to learn share with my older sister and not be so selfish?
[courage] and accept my faults
[Jack] try to be patient with myself
[momtofour] spend more time being instead of doing
[madge] live not just survive
[doctor_amino] give myself a clean slate next Monday
[sarah_jane] permission not to be perfect
[Jack] enjoy my time with my kids
[chicodiva] realize that I don't have to be perfect and its ok to make a listake
[ALWAYSHOPE] believe in myself, cuz one day no one else might
[ballerinagirl] sleep in without feeling guilty
[Anonymous_Member005] play with my sisters
[HopeMadison] permission to relax
[Anonymous_Member005] permission to be me
[Jack] play with my kids
[SFishy] great answers all!
[MrFishy] great share!
[SFishy] I want to remind everyone...
[SFishy] that your gifts to yourselves are NOT things that you should expect to achieve overnight...
[SFishy] try your best
[SFishy] and remind yourself daily "I deserve this gift to myself" --
[SFishy] and take small steps to achieve the biggers ones...
[SFishy] take the time for YOU
[SFishy] we are getting close to the end of our chat tonight...
[SFishy] but there are a few more questions we have
[SFishy] the holiday coming up this weekend is New Years...
[SFishy] and we DO NOT believe in resolutions
[SFishy] but it does symbolize the beginning of a new year
[SFishy] this shouldn't be something that we say "okay, January 1 I'm going to be all better"
[SFishy] or make broad promises to ourselves that only set us up for failure...
[SFishy] it's a time to spend looking forward to achieving the things we want for the future!
[MrFishy] id like to share a story....
[MrFishy] i heard an interview once...
[MrFishy] with a famous pole vaulter.....
[MrFishy] he won something or another...
[MrFishy] he wasnt the strongest....
[MrFishy] or the fastest....
[MrFishy] or the smartest at his craft......
[MrFishy] and they asked him....
[MrFishy] "why do you feel you won"...
[MrFishy] and he said....
[MrFishy] evertime i look at the pole.....
[MrFishy] up in the air....
[MrFishy] i VISUALIZE myself over that pole....
[MrFishy] and i take the jump ONE STEP AT A TIME.
[SFishy] this is the way we can look at life... and our own recovery
[SFishy] visualize where we want to be...
[SFishy] and take it at our own individual pace...
[SFishy] one step at a time
[SFishy] using our strengths... learning from our weaknesses
[SFishy] can you all share with me a strength you can build upon slowly for a new beginning towards recovery (or a continuation of the path)??
[chicodiva] I used to polevault and I know exactly what he was talking about. I never thought about applying it to recovery
[ALWAYSHOPE] Im going to let myself cry. And stand up for myself. I deserve it.
[ballerinagirl] letting myself tell people i'm hurting EVEN IF SOMEONE ELSE IS TOO :-/
[honey_bear] I'm going to take better care of me
[honey_bear] allowing myself to reach out
[Anonymous_Member005] I'm going to express my feelings to my psychologist
[momtofour] patience with myself
[ballerinagirl] not stuffing my own feelings back inside to slwoly kill me just because a friend is hurting too
[courage] I am going to get better so I can go back and finish school!
[ALWAYSHOPE] Im going to apply myself
[Alexandra] thinking before reacting
[Anonymous_Member005] love me
[La] sharing w/o tooo mcuh fear of judgement?
[Jack] I'm going to allow myself to feel whatever I am feeling and try not to bury it
[HopeMadison] allowing myself to ask for my needs
[Pink_Princess] be honest with me
[varmaflower] talk more to my coach and family about what bother me and not hide them and then do some stupid action?
[madge] i am not going to allow myself to be verbally abused or not listened to
[honey_bear] tell my therapist all that is going on
[chicodiva] I'm going to demand that people listen to me when I have a problem, instead of letting them walk all over me.
[ALWAYSHOPE] I believe I can get better.
[momtofour] honesty with others
[Jack] I'm going to be honest with others about what I am feeling
[Anonymous_Member005] allowing myself to believe I deserve help
[courage] use the resources I have
[ALWAYSHOPE] i believe I can do anything.
[Anonymous_Member005] honesty with myself
[HopeMadison] talk more and share more
[madge] censor less in therapy
[doctor_amino] i keep WAITING, instread of DOING
[Pink_Princess] try and tell myselt the truth
[Jack] continue to be proud of my recovery
[ballerinagirl] let myself post something on the boards WHEN i feel bad..instead of waiting till after
[ALWAYSHOPE] then just do it doc.
[doctor_amino] go ballerinagirl.
[HopeMadison] i like that doc
[ALWAYSHOPE] Yes ballerinagirl:)
[Anonymous_Member005] realize that recovery doesn't happen over night
[doctor_amino] i will begin, i have no choice now. : )
[varmaflower] realizing I am not doing it(work on recovery) just for me but for my body and soul? (sorry, this sound stupid)
* MrFishy sprays the room with ED Repellant!!!
[momtofour] to reach out versus isolate when I feel rough
[Jack] I'm going to take time out for me
[courage] thanks tony!
[chicodiva] I'm going to use my stubbornness towards something positive
[HopeMadison] take more risjs
[ALWAYSHOPE] Yes ,you go doc!
[Anonymous_Member005] spend time with myself
[HopeMadison] laugh more
[ALWAYSHOPE] Passthe bottle to me!
[HopeMadison] cry more
[madge] be kind to me
[SFishy] GREAT answers!
[MrFishy] AWESOME ANSWERS!
* SFishy is proud of everone
[SFishy] of course... I now want to hear your affirmations...
[SFishy] give me the reasons you deserve to love yourself!!!
[SFishy] Tell me your good qualities!
[honey_bear] I AM WORTH IT!
[HopeMadison] I am strong
[courage] I am strong and courageous!
[Jack] I am smart
[honey_bear] I am loving
[ALWAYSHOPE] Because I am kind
[Jack] I am kind
[Anonymous_Member005] bc I am special
[honey_bear] I am kind
[ballerinagirl] cause maybe i'm ok just cause i'm me
[Jack] I am strong
[momtofour] I am compassionate
[Anonymous_Member005] I deserve it
[Pink_Princess] I love to listen
[courage] I am sensitive
[HopeMadison] I am kind
[momtofour] I am loving and lovable
[Jack] I am compassionate
[madge] honest,good honest hard working
[varmaflower] I am very special to other?
[momentito] i'm special
[Jack] I am honest
[courage] I deserve happiness and love
[doctor_amino] funny and earnest.
[chicodiva] CAUSE I'M GOOD ENOUGH, I'M SMART ENOUGH AND GOSH DARN IT...PEOPLE LIKE ME!!!!!!!!!!
[Jack] I am a good mother
[Jack] I am a good wife
[momtofour] I adore my family
[Jack] I have goals
[honey_bear] chicodiva... I love that!
[HopeMadison] I am a good person
[ballerinagirl] i work hard when i want something
[varmaflower] people look up to me and I am a good role model
[ewlialovesme] i'm capable of things that i think i am not
[chicodiva] THANKS HONEYBEAR
[courage] I am Courage hear me ROAR!!!!!!
[Jack] I am a good friend
[ALWAYSHOPE] lol chic
[Anonymous_Member005] I'm the Little engine that could
[HopeMadison] I am thoughtful
[momtofour] I am loyal
[momentito] i want to achieve my goals
[Jack] I am trustworthy
[ALWAYSHOPE] I will make it. cuz im strong
[varmaflower] I believe in myself and encourage other to do the same
[doctor_amino] i am ready!
[ewlialovesme] i'm not as bad as i think i am
[ballerinagirl] i'm not a bad person
[Anonymous_Member005] 2001 is the year
[ALWAYSHOPE] i am me:)
[HopeMadison] go Sarah
[MrFishy] EVERYONE should pat themselves on the back tonight! Awesome shares!
* SFishy pats everyone on the virtual back
[SFishy] you all did wonderful tonight and I thank everyone for sharing...
[SFishy] a follow-up game is already posted on the bulletin board, in the FISHING FOR SUPPORT forum...
[SFishy] and of course we invite all of you to participate!
[SFishy] The holiday season can be tough, but it can also be something to enjoy, a time to take care of US!!
[SFishy] and create new and positive memories for ourselves for the future!
[SFishy] You are ALL worth it
[SFishy] thanks so much to everyone for coming this month...
[SFishy] we'll be posting the transcript from the chat in the next 24 hours or so...
[SFishy] please remember always...
[SFishy] be good to yourselves...
[SFishy] and TAKE CARE OF YOU!
[MrFishy] be good to you all! and have a healthy and SAFE new year!
[SFishy] see you all next year (har har har har har) corny
[SFishy] and at next months chat (and around the bulletin boards!)
[SFishy] Good night!
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